Reverb 10 Day 24: This kid is alright

Today’s Prompt What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright? And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead? Actually, that moment was yesterday. Well, it was really several moments. But God* spoke to me very loudly over the course of the day. In fact, I was left with a great question to take to my Shiva Nata practice: What do I need to know about walking on water? Three times yesterday I saw/heard this phrase, and each time I got more goosebumps. It all started with simple curiosity. . . Clue the first: journal As I was waiting for my bagel to toast, I glanced through an old journal from 2006. I had found it when cleaning out a bookshelf the previous weekend. I actually thought it was blank so I picked it up to make sure. Reading old journals is not something I do very often. I saw my frustrations with my body and my finances, which was kind of depressing. Four years I’ve been battling the same issues? Oy. I also came across a reflection on my faith. I had a certainty that everything was going to work out, even if I couldn’t see how. I compared it to walking on water; if (like Peter) I kept my eyes on Jesus and relied on faith, I was good, if I looked down or started to rely on myself, I sank. Apparently it was time to learn that lesson again, or remember it and go deeper. Clue the second: note from the universe Then my Note...

Reverb 10 Day 21: Future Self (and a bonus)

Today’s Prompt Future Self. Imagine yourself five years from now. What advice would you give your current self for the year ahead? (Bonus: Write a note to yourself 10 years ago. What would you tell your younger self?) This is a great prompt for me (and I’m sure many others) right now. I’m doing my Magical Mapping for the next year, next five years, and next ten years. Somehow, slipping into the guise of my Future Self makes creating my year more concrete and less a vision that may or not be fulfilled. It also shifts something in my brain that allows for possibilities I hadn’t even thought of but are smart. I’m keeping the Future Self conversation in my journal for now. I had to keep it a private discussion so that I wouldn’t be tempted to censor myself. There’s a lot I will share with other people, but some things are meant for my mind and heart alone. What I will do is answer the bonus question. Dear Self of 2000 Ten years ago I was 21, almost 22. I was in the middle of my last year of college, and I was weathering some stormy conditions. I don’t remember a lot about the first part of the year, but I will never forget August and the months thereafter. On a Sunday afternoon in August of 2000, my boyfriend of a year and a half broke up with me. It came fairly out of the blue; we’d hit a rocky patch a few weeks earlier but just two weeks before he broke my heart, he’d given me...

Reberb 10, Day 17: Lesson Learned

Today’s Prompt Lesson Learned: What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward? I barely learned my best lesson before this prompt popped up! Guess you can’t rush enlightenment :). The best thing I learned about myself this year is (cue drumroll). . .I can do it. What? That’s my great lesson? Of course I can do it. Wait, do what? Anything I set my mind to. You can take your answer and jump off a cliff Yes, I have “known” this for a long time. But I have known it in the sense that while I know I could skydive I’ve never actually done it. I know people who have taken that leap and felt that terror turned exhilaration. I’ve seen it in movies. In my head, I know what skydiving is. In my body, I’m still clueless (and before anyone signs me up for a dive, I’m happy to remain that way. It’s a metaphor, people). What’s it really all about? So what is this metaphor really about? Successful entrepreneurship. I have seen plenty of “ordinary” people, both on and off line, run hugely successful small businesses. I’ve watched them build it from nothing to six figures a year. I’ve listened to them all tell me that if they could do it, anybody could. In my head, I knew it was possible; that kind of knowing wasn’t enough. I can’t pinpoint the exact moment this really sank in, but over the last month or so my intellectual understanding has spread to my heart and gut....

Reverb 10, Day 16: Friendship (but not really)

Today’s Prompt Friendship How has a friend changed you or your perspective on the world this year? Was this change gradual, or a sudden burst? I’m having trouble coming up with an answer to this one. I don’t think I had a perspective change that was prompted by a friend. Oh well, I can skip this one. I’ll go back to another one I missed but really wanted to do: December 4 – Wonder. How did you cultivate a sense of wonder in your life this year? Beginner’s mind I cultivated a sense of wonder by practicing “beginner’s mind.” This is one of my favorite takeaways from a mindfulness course I took: approach everything as if it’s the first time. The first time you tasted chocolate. The first time you saw a sunset. The first time you drove a car. The first time you brushed your teeth. When you do this, you are paying attention to what is happening in the moment. You become engaged in the NOW, and the past and future can’t bother you. Yes, him again (what can I say? He’s a fantastic life coach!) I had a great model for this in my nephew; everyday things became extraordinary as I watched through his eyes. Simple things, like flipping a switch and having light flood the room; falling leaves; clouds; trains. Usually, being stuck at a train crossing is incredibly annoying. Who has time to just sit and watch car after car go by for what seems like an hour (but is usually only a few minutes)? Well, my nephew does. He not only has the...

Reverb 10, Day 15: 5 Minutes

Today’s Prompt 5 Minutes: Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes. Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010. Nothing like some beat the clock pressure to get you writing, huh? I most want to remember: Learning about sovereignty courtesy of Havi and Hiro. All the cute, smart, fun things my nephew did. The time I spend with my grandma. Feeling biggified* in my business. Discovering what I want to do with my life, career-wise (more on that to come). My vacation in Italy and Greece. Seeing the Vatican. My first wedding anniversary. A good friend’s wedding. Performing in “Lend Me a Tenor” in my first character role. Finding out what was wrong with me (hypothyroidism & fibromyalgia). Joining the wonderful community at the Kitchen Table. The time I spent with my good friend and mentor Nancy Miller before she died. That’s a pretty good list–very in keeping with yesterday’s post about how time spent with loved ones is what I appreciated most about 2010. *Havi’s fun word that replaces “marketing” and its squirmy associations. But What about the other stuff? As I went back through my year, I found a lot of stuff I’d love to forget. Well, not forget, because everything I experience shapes me into better and better versions of myself, but stuff to let go of and leave in 2010. Stuff like: Being at a very low point, physically and mentally, on my wedding anniversary. Panicking over financial issues. The pain of losing a good friend. The frustration and stress that...

Reverb 10 Day 14: Appreciate

Today’s Prompt Appreciate: What’s the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year? How do you express gratitude for it? I have really come to appreciate that the most important things in life can’t be bought. I started this year being frustrated at my lack of income, bemoaning all the empty time in my schedule and feeling guilty for not contributing to the family piggy bank. I was spending plenty of time caring for my grandma and nephew, but neither was generating the level of income I was supposedly capable of obtaining. Then one day a few months ago, it hit me: the opportunity to make more money in the future would always be there, but this time with loved ones was fleeting. Grandma My grandma is 81 and suffering from post-polio disease. She’s still in her own home but moving around is very difficult and sometimes scary. I spend the mornings and early afternoons during the week with her, assisting with showers, exercises and doctor appointments. Most of the time I’m just there in case she falls or has some other trouble. As she loves to tell me, her days are numbered (“I don’t think I can last more than another year, Christine”). Of course, neither of us can really know when her (or anyone’s) time will be up. Until then, I treasure every moment I get to spend with her. In the end, those moments are worth more than any salary. My favorite little guy The same is true for my nephew. He’s two now and these early months and years will never...