Why do I want to start all of my posts with a sigh? Maybe because a deep breath feels so good and I can’t always take one at will. Maybe because what I want to write about is challenging but necessary. Maybe I have too much to say and worry I won’t be clear. In any case, siiiiggggghhhhhh.
I have recently been coming to the conclusion that I need to fully commit to getting gluten out of my diet, at least for a trial period. I’ve suspected that I have a gluten intolerance for a few years and have managed to get a lot of it out of my diet and find some great alternatives, which has been beneficial. Sometimes, however, a strict, full-board cleanse is in order.
Here’s why I think I need this:
Despite my thyroid levels being optimal, I am still tired beyond tired. I need a nap to recover from showering and eating breakfast, for crying out loud!
I’ve had trouble with intestinal pain and bloating for as long as I can remember.
Others with gluten intolerance/Celiac’s disease have suggested I might have it.
Why I don’t want to do this
Well, there’s the obvious: I looooove me some good bread products.
It can be hard to find alternatives when eating out or on the go.
I don’t want to create a hardship for anyone else, especially my husband as he already has to deal with my pescatarianism.
I don’t want to be a hypochondriac! I feel like I’m always healing from something, whether it’s depression, anxiety, hypothyroidism, etc.
Aha, sovereignty issues!
Even though it may jeopardize my health and well-being, I resist being a burden on anyone.
Even though I have not chosen to have these health problems, I’m afraid people will be annoyed by my special needs.
Hmmmm. Is there a way to honor my body’s needs without being an annoying burden? I bet there is. What would that look like?
For one thing, feeling better would give me less to complain about, which would be less annoying.
I would have more energy to spend with other people.
My husband is already on board with healthful eating and would probably be a better sport than I think.
True friends will respect my needs and encourage me in being healthy.
If I don’t act apologetic about it, just more “yeah it sucks but that’s the way it is” and offer to bring my own food to events, people may be less annoyed. But even if they are, what other people think of me is none of my business.Why should I spend hours and hours and days and days being uncomfortable and in pain just to earn others’ goodwill?
Good, that’s settled then.
For now, I just plan to ease off the gluten bit by bit. Between the play I’m in and the wedding I’m a part of, a complete elimination in the next few weeks just isn’t realistic.
I’ll also be more observant of when I’m tempted to eat things with gluten and how I feel when I do/don’t give in.
I will remind myself of all the gluten-free foods I love and how feeling good is worth the sacrifice. After all, I pretty much gave up meat a couple of years ago and I don’t really miss it even though I used to enjoy it.
The main thing is to be gentle and playful with this. I’d love to hear other ways of reframing what a “hypochondriac” means so leave me your take in the comments!