“At the Smithy” is a place where I discuss what I am currently learning about, be it through a book, an ecourse, a teleclass, or a life experiment. This is my opportunity to model what I’m teaching others and legitimizes all the self-work I like to do (bonus!).
It has been (very unpleasantly) brought to my attention that I’m not really doing my best to give my ittybiz what it needs. I’ve been trying to give it research, education, content creation, product development, systems development–all things that are generally good for a business.
So what does LMWS really need from me? Health. None of the above can happen if I’m not in good, solid shape. I’ll spare you the details, but basically my thyroid (which never balanced out in the first place) is backsliding. I’ve talked about swimming with the crocodile before, if you want more background.
My body has been complaining and I have been trying to placate it with little tweaks to my routine here and there. Last week my body hijacked my mind and spirit and said “fix your health before anything else!” I immediately protest because my bills won’t wait, house cleaning won’t wait, all the various obligations of life WON’T WAIT.
But I want desperately to rest. I am craving long nights of sleep and days of naps. I long for curling up on the couch with a good book, preparing and enjoying good, simple food, and engaging in regular but gentle exercise. Somehow I tell myself this is impossible, yet I know it is necessary.
I can’t make my health just one of many priorities. It is THE priority, and it’s time to start acting like it, whether people are supportive of it or not. I’m a firm believer in “you teach other people how to treat you” and I will teach them to treat me with respect and compassion, even when they can’t understand. In turn, I will have respect and compassion for their inability to comprehend something they’ve never experienced.
I don’t know how long this will take; I’m still figuring out exactly what’s wrong with me. My poor blog will probably be a bit neglected, because I don’t have very much emotional and mental energy to put into it. I know I can handle “Mad Love Mondays” and maybe one or two short posts a week. Dearest blog, please know that I am doing everything I can to get better and once I am, I will shower you with attention and love.
And now? To rest.